they just suck i find myself being crushed because my fuckin friend and now i dont no how to tell her cuz she has anger issuses and i like him so much that i cry myself to sleep and want to break down crying when i see him in the hallways in school and kill my frined cuz she wont except him at all and i no that if i told her how i really feel about him shell want to kill me and most certainly him. he asked me out on date and i had to say no cuz he asked me out for the mothers days and i wanted to cry cuz i said no cuz i have to go to my grandparents till midnight. he holds me so right so frim and holds me with a passion and never wants to leave me it kills me. it is so hard not to kiss him just to show him how i feel and my true feelings but i dont want to be killed by my friend. plus i dont want him to die either and now im dieing because it kills me to have him and be happier then i am and my life sucks from all the crying myself to sleep. life is a bitch. life can blow it self.